At 52, I suppose I’ve been classified as a midlifer for quite some time. However, up until now, I feel like I’ve been more in a transition period – at times quite a messy one. There was a lot going on.
Although no-one really knows when it truly starts, I think my peri-menopause journey commenced at around 47. Of course, you don’t just wake up one day and excitedly do a test like you do when you are trying to fall pregnant (and who ever really thinks of joy when you mention the taboo word of ‘menopause’?). No, peri-menopause sneaks up on you. Before you know it, your hormones, body and mind are going crazy, you have no idea what has happened and you have changed – forever.
I’ve experienced many changes throughout this transition – and they often haven’t been positive ones. Ridiculously, I naively thought that my quite healthy lifestyle would protect me from most menopause symptoms. Nope – over the last 5 years, I experienced symptoms including (but not limited to) severe night sweats, continuous heavy bleeding, uncontrollable rages, excruciatingly sore joints, nightly sleep disturbances (insomnia, frequent waking, numerous toilet visits, tossing and turning, sore joints), vaginal dryness, creepy skin, weight gain, muscle loss etc etc. I’ve also experienced weird feelings of loss – of my child bearing abilities, my youth, my waistline and also my femininity to some extent (things I never thought would concern me).
All that sounds horrendous (and at times it was) but now at 18 months post menopause, things seem to be settling down and I’m feeling good – thank goodness!
Over the last 5 years, I’ve educated myself, read widely, researched, completed courses and experimented. As a result, I have made quite a few changes to my nutrition, exercise and lifestyle which has helped to manage the majority of my menopause symptoms. However, something which I think has made the biggest impact is that I’ve also taken much more responsibility for my own health and overall life. I now consider myself to be the expert of me (after all I’ve known myself for 52 years now). I seek guidance from professionals but if I don’t get the answers I’m looking for, then I now speak up, ask questions and often get a second opinion.
As difficult as it has been, the challenges I have experienced and dealt with have allowed me to come out the other side feeling more confident, happier and excited about this next phase of my life. I feel much more in control of my body and I’m actually healthier than ever before. Although I only needed to make small adjustments to some areas such as my exercise and nutrition habits, I did have to make some big changes to other areas, such as the way I managed stress and prioritised sleep.
Of course, I don’t have everything perfect and that’s no longer a goal of mine. I am a continuous work in progress, there are continuous bumps along the road and things will continue to change as I age. However, I’m now ready to bloom, to thrive and to unveil the woman I have evolved into through this menopause process and transition. I’m ready to transform into the most authentic and best version of me.
2021 is my year of midlife transformation.